This post is more for me than anyone else. I love looking back at my “On this day” a year or years later to see where my head was. What exactly was my mindset? Have things changed or have they stayed the same?
So here we are the last official day of October, my birthday month. And as the celebration comes to an end and I journey on yet another trip around the sun and the moon, I’m reflective.
What a crazy year right?! Well for me it has been. I can honestly say I thought this year would have been different. VERY DIFFERENT. I had soooo many plans! Places to travel to, people to meet, goals to crush. I was beyond excited for “my 20/20 Vision.” Keyword being “My”, because it quickly became apparent that God had the real VISION, me more like cute little “ideals” of how my life was supposed to be.
Never in a million years did I expect the PANDEMIC would occur. That the world would come to a complete halt. That life as I’ve become accustomed to would change, maybe forever? I had no idea that the deaths of Ahmaud Arberry, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd would rock my entire world and thrust me into a state of anxiety and depression that I’ve never felt before. That the things I’d grown so accustomed to turning a blind eye to in this world would become so blinding to “the others” that they would force me face them head on.
I never expected my very own body to turn on me. To watch myself, the control freak, have to ask someone to do the simplest tasks like opening a bottle of water, buttoning a shirt, or helping me walk. And in the midst of having so many challenges and unanswered questions to find out that I was also carrying a child? <insert freak out>!
Yet, In the midst of what sounds like a chaotic year, I can still say that this has been one of the best years of my life. I am thankful for every trial. Never thought I’d hear myself say that about things NOT going as I envisioned them to. This year has been my BELIEVE BIGGER YEAR. I’ve never understood II Corinthians 12:10 better. His power is made perfect in our weaknesses. In an excerpt from Marshawn Evans book Believe Bigger:For when I am weak, then I am strong. That part is the super power at work. ME relying on GOD to do what only GOD can do through me.
So when I look back at my 2020 Vision, I no longer have a desire to live this year any differently than I have. When I surrendered my vision to God’s vision for my life, the blessings that my family and I have experienced were minuscule compared to what I ever could have manifested on my own. My biggest birthday flex has been watching God perform miracle after miracle in the midst of this pandemic and surrendering my life vision to him in a way that I know that it is he and only HE is leading me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIGI🤍🌸🤍
Gigi Powers
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